Ramblings

Grief can still hit unexpectedly. Yesterday morning I was having a quiet time, and just doing normal stuff around the house, when out of the blue, I was hit with unexpected tears that wouldn't stop. They streamed down my face and I felt like my heart was breaking all over again. The intensity of emotions was strong and all I could do was cry... 

Missing Phil
hurts
It can still be 
an anguish of 
soul
Longing
for what was
Being able to 
talk, 
receive his wisdom 
and advice 
on decisions
that need to be made
My life
forever
altered 
by his passing
but not just in hard ways
...good ways too
Leaning harder on God
than I ever have in my 
life
I've not arrived 
by any means
Arriving won't
happen
until I'm home.
Home... 
no wonder I constantly have 
a sense
of 
longing 

The other day I read a verse that I've read many times, but when I read it in this particular version it stopped me in my tracks. 

Isaiah 26:3-4 "You will keep the mind that is dependent on you in perfect peace, for it is trusting in you. Trust in the LORD forever, because in the LORD, the LORD himself is an everlasting rock!"

We live in a society that encourages us to strive for independence... to think for ourselves, to be our own person... so when we see what God says, about trusting Him and depending on Him, we can probably tend to think that's backwards... but in reality, isn't it the world that is backwards to what God says? For in Him is our true self found, and our joy made complete, peace granted - not just peace, but perfect peace, as our minds are dependent on HIM. Wow... Just stop and think about that word... dependent... it really does pack a punch doesn't it?